If you had spoken to me six years ago I was always talking about things I’d like to do, see or say and it was always tomorrow, in the future, eventually, that was until I had my Wake Up Call.
Then on the 25/11/2011, I went into hospital for routine knee surgery, I wasn’t afraid I knew what to expect, after all I’d had the same surgery on my other knee in June of that year.
Little did I know that during this surgery, one injection would leave me with a whole new perspective on life.
Whilst under anaesthetic I given a painkiller , a painkiller that it turns out I’m allergic to.
I remember coming around from the surgery and not being able to open my eyes. There were people around me that I could hear but my eyes were unable to focus, verything was bright and blurry. My body felt cold, I still remember the weight of the blankets that they put on me as my temperature dropped. But what I remember most was the heart monitors beeping and someone yelling for me to breathe.
My mum has since told me that when she saw me on the ward, I was pale and covered in purple marks. When I became coherent I was sat down and informed that I had suffered a severe allergic reaction.
How close I had come
I spent a couple of days in shock, playing over the events in my head and then my brother, sister in law and 2 year old niece came to see me.
My niece approached me with her dolls pillow and put it behind my head. She then turned to my family and said ‘Aunty Kirty’s poorly’.
It was with that action that I started to cry, I battled for over 2 hours in recovery and if I hadn’t, there was so much I would of missed out on.
I have always acknowledged how wonderful my family are and the thought of missing out on things with them terrified me. I have the most beautiful precious niece who makes me smile every day and I want to watch her grow.
But that day also made me realise that I couldn’t keep putting things off, I needed to start taking more chances and live for the moment.
It took me nearly losing my life to realise I needed to start living it and although I will admit that losing my dad this year has rocked my world but i know that eventually I will get some of that fire back in my belly and I will live my life to the fullest and leave this world with no regrets, the way my dad did!
So today take a chance, do something that makes you smile, tell someone you love them and live your life.