2017 was the worst year of my life and whilst I can’t ever look back on the year as a happy one I do have to admit that on reflection it did also bring about some happy occasions and a change in the person that I am today.
2017 will always be for me the year that I lost my dad, the last time I got to hear his voice, tell him I love him and hug him.
But the year also gave me 365 days with the man I love, the man who stepped up at a time when I needed him the most and made sure that he was there for both me and my family. At the start of those 365 days he started taking me on dates, meeting my family and surprising me with trips. As we got a few months in he would listen as i cried about what was to come and when the worst happened he stroked my hair and held me tight as I sobbed and said goodbye to the man who had been my number one.
He stuck with me through thick and thin and is definitely the happy that the year held within.
2017 also made me realise the people who say they are there and mean it, it made me look at my friends and family circles closely and reevaluate things. I discovered that some relatives will choose to be there in your happy times and run a mile in your sad. I found that friends who are miles away will make sure that they check in every day just to let you know they are there. I learned some people will find it hard when you need to pull closer to loved ones and not prioritise nights out. But most of all I found my true inner circle, the ones who are there no matter what…. day or night!
When i look back over 2017 the one thing that stands out the most is the journey of discovery I had.
Not only did I find my soulmate and the true people in my life but I also learned to start the process of following my dreams. To push myself further into doing things that I love and make a life that I can be proud of.
When my dad found out his cancer was terminal he said he had no regrets, he had done everything he wanted and had an incredible family that he was immensely proud of. He had achieved the happiness that his mum had wanted for him and wanted the same for his own children. This will stay with me forever and drive me on the days my motivation waivers.
So on reflection, although the hard times far outweighed the happy 2017 taught me more than I knew.