I never intended to post this so late but unfortunately thanks to sleeping most of January away due to my mystery illness and spending February up and down the hospital, it is only now that I find myself having time to sit down and finish the post I started in regards to my goals for 2018.
I will be honest I am terrible at new years resolutions, I will often say I am going to give up chocolate or at least cutback and by the 2nd of January I am devouring a bar and forgetting the meaning of a resolution.
This is why going into 2018 I decided I wouldn’t set a single resolution but instead I would draw up a list of my aspirations and work towards them.
My biggest aspiration of 2018 is to find happiness in my professional life, at the end of 2017 I took a huge leap and entered the freelance world. My work life balance was off and my job got me down, armed with the skills and qualifications I’ve gained over the years I am making the tentative steps to work for myself.
This allows me to not only attend blogging events but also fit my computer work in around my nystagmus. What I want in 2018 is for my freelance work to keep growing. I love what I do and I want to keep that feeling every single day.
2017 took its toll on me. Following my dad’s passing, I was diagnosed with reactive depression and whilst I have a great support network around me, I know I have allowed myself to become quite introverted.
My confidence has hit a low and when it comes to my body image I hate myself. But I also know that only I can work on this. Which is why I am hoping that if I carry on with my CBT (Cognitive behavioural therapy) and start attending more events my self-esteem may start to grow.
Like a lot of people, I have always loved exploring new places and witnessing different cultures. My parents took me abroad from an early age and when we were able they fuelled my wanderlust. This year I would like to see more of the world, from quaint places in the UK to hot countries abroad. The aim is to put my explorer’s hat on and make new memories.
Live with a boy
If everything goes to plan this is the year I will move in with the love of my life. Something that I honestly never thought would happen to me. Growing up I always felt like I was here to play cupid for friends and offer advice and a shoulder if things went bad. Now I have Adam, I want it all. Marriage, a house, a family, a future with my soulmate.
Whilst the above are my big aspirations for the year, I also have some little goals for 2018,
Photographer becomes model
As I said earlier I am not body confident and I am definitely not model material but whilst I am already working on improving my own photography skills, by the end of the year I want to be confident enough to be in front of the camera instead of behind it all the time.
Change my hair
Before I became a freelancer I worked within the public sector and that meant that certain image changes went against my contract. And although I am not intending to go for a very drastic look I do want to finally do something I have longed to do with my hair (watch this space)
As much as I would like this to be a not so subtle hint to Adam, it is instead a word I need to say more. I am often riddled with self-doubt and worry, which means that I can talk myself out of doing things. But this year I want to say YES to more opportunities and networking.
So there you have it, my aspirations for 2018, what are yours?