At the beginning of the month I shared with you my new month, a new mindset post.
The truth is that this month has been a testing one, my body confidence has hit lows I didn’t think existed and my CBT sessions have tapped into memories that have left me sobbing and distraught.
But as I sit here on a balcony in Spain, typing with the sun overlooking me, I realise that every low makes me fight harder to get back up.
I’m working on my body image and although I wish I could click my fingers and be at a point where I am happier with myself I also know that working for it will make me appreciate it even more.
My CBT needs to delve deep to get to the thought processes that trigger my episodes and as much as it can leave me drained I know that in the long run, it is all going to help with my healthy mind, healthy body approach.
In a weird way the sun helps, it makes me feel brighter and more optimistic, admittedly it still makes me freak out at the idea of what to wear. Cardigans are not conducive to heat.
I can’t deny that the vitamin D does me good, as someone who has to take supplements to make sure her body absorbs vitamin D I love being out in the sun, knowing that it is helping me.
In my previous post I referred to the NHS tips for dealing with depression.
Here’s how I got on:
STAY IN TOUCH
This month I reconnected with a friend who I haven’t seen since losing my dad, he allowed me the chance to talk about dad but in my own time and at my own pace. It was great to catch up and made me realise that good friends have been there waiting for me. Not rushing me or pushing me, they’ve allowed me the time to breath and deal with my emotions, knowing that I will be in touch when I am ready.
BE MORE ACTIVE
As you know I have started my XlS journey and through that I am walking more and making sure that I am more active daily. I still plan on trying yoga and exploring other activities but at the moment I am enjoying walking and and the thinking time it brings with it.
FACE YOUR FEARS
Although I haven’t faced a lot of fears this month, standing in a room in London in fitted clothes and being photographed was definitely a fear of mine. Add into that the fact that I was also interviewed on camera. I think I definitely faced a few fears that day.
DON’T DRINK TOO MUCH
Despite being on holiday I am still sticking to this, I am however trying the hotels cocktail of the day. However, I am not drinking in excess and I am savouring the drinks I do have.
TRY TO EAT A HEALTHY DIET
Thanks to XLS I have this one covered, with my two shakes a day and an evening meal of up to 600 calories I am definitely eating healthier than I was.
HAVE A ROUTINE
I have started to get my routine more in order and also plan some breaks away, some time to relax and also create some fab content for Luv and Lifestyle.
So there you have it, I may not be where I want to be but I am not where I was at the start of the month…. that in itself is a positive.