I had never really experienced romance first hand so when I started dating Adam it was new to me to have someone who wanted to surprise me and make me feel special.
Over the past year and a half, he has surprised me with trips away, concert tickets and things I have mentioned I like in passing. And as much as I love those things and wouldn’t want them to stop (if you are reading this Adam, please don’t). It is the little things that show me how much he cares.
Like holding me when I cry about missing my dad, Holding back my hair after I drank too much at my dad’s wake, picking me up on days he can meet me from my counselling. As well as reminding me that he is there for my family and me.
I put up a lot of resistance at times. Not wanting him to feel like I was a burden or that he had made a bad decision swiping right on me…. I tried to push him away from my worst moments but he pushed back and broke through my barriers.
And in all that time I found my feelings getting stronger as I faced an internal battle with my grief. And then on the weekend of what would’ve been my parent’s wedding anniversary, my mum and I went away and Adam stayed at ours to look after B.